I'm scared to talk about this to anyone. I'm scared to talk to any of my friends, or anyone else. I just need someone to vent to..
Well, my girlfriend, we'll call her K. I met her in 2005 and we've been dating since 2009. I love her a lot.. However, I think our relationship is falling apart..
A few weeks ago, we got into a big fight and almost broke up. We stopped talking for a few days, and I thought about this other girl. We'll call her V.
Well, I thought about her for a while. Not in a creepy perverted way. And then I realized that I really liked V. A lot. I get butterflies when I'm around her and make up stupid things just to talk to her.
I want to tell V how I feel about her. But at the same time I don't want to hurt K. It's really hard.. I know the right thing to do would be to break up with her, but I don't want her to hate me..
The truth is, I've been thinking of breaking up for K for a while.. I never let her know this of course, it would crush her. But, according to her, I make her feel bad. I don't give her the attention that she wants. She wants my every dying minute to be about her. I can't hang out with friends, or do anything at all because I didn't invite her. She has bad trust issues because one of her ex's cheated on her.
At the same time, she hurts me. She teases me because of my incontinence, and she's threatened to tell all her friends..
I don't have the heart to break up with someone, but I really like V and want to see what will happen..
I argue and argue and argue with K and I try to resolve things with her, but she does it again. Whenever I try to resolve something, she starts to cry and act like whatever she did was my fault. She always plays innocent and gets mad over the stupidest things, like when I have my own opinion.
My heart wants me to put this relationship to rest, but I don't think I can take the emotional stress.
Why do I get myself involved in serious relationships...? ;^;