About a month ago I wrote about my brother inheriting 30 grand. In that moment all I could see was red, in fact all I could see for quite a few weeks was red. My little brother had always been very cruel to my older brother, and I so when I found out that he was receiving this money I just couldn't deal with it.
I was in so much pain, so much anger, and so much jealousy that I just couldn't understand why he was the better of us three.
I know now that he's not, and just last Saturday I received my Associates and High School diploma. I'm 19, and I'm going to receive my Bachelors in Physical Therapy in 3 years. My older brother has a beautiful little family, and they aren't struggling as badly as several other families in my area. We're alright, we're not rich, and we're not sure what the future will hold for us. But, we're OK.
I'm still not talking to my younger brother for several reasons beyond the whole money issue, and I feel good. People tell me that he still talks about me, and my older brother but we're still alright.
If he wants a relationship it's his move, we've tried for too long with no success and just so much pain.
For those that read that particular post, I apologize for sounding like a whiny two year old. The only thing I felt at that time was pain, and having another tell me that I was being silly just made it worse. I'm still too young to understand so many things, and my emotions are just something I can't cope with. Especially when it comes to something like this.
So, I'm sorry for everyone I may have hurt or just annoyed. I truly mean that.