... I'd like to apologize beforehand if any of you feel you have wasted your time reading this post as I understand I sometimes come across as being overly dramatic. It's just I can't STAND what's happening to me atm.
To paraphrase a long story, bascially I like a girl who I THOUGHT liked me, but it turns out she has a boyfriend. Now she keeps acting really weird around me.
Simply put, I feel like I'm being played. I feel like I'm attached to a yo-yo that she can just use as she pleases. She's not a mean person at all, but I haven't known her long enough to determine whether she's really as manipulative as I believe or not.
She acts like she really likes me and enjoys being around me but I feel like she's just doing it for the attention because I jealously notice her giving other guys similar attention as well. Note that I met her in drama club and she always says she's a really good actress (which she is) but I can't determine how much of that is me being paranoid and me being love drunk.
I know I'm not giving you guys the full story and I know there's not a whole lot of advice you can give me that I haven't already heard. It's just that it hurts so much to finally find a girl who is so damn unique compared to all the other girls I've met in my short life just to have her play these F***ING games with me.
I usually don't allow myself to get close to a girl because I've been played before but this girl is so damn good at what she does, it just feels like my hearts being ripped out of my chest and stepped on for her amusement. It's affecting my schoolwork and my life because every time I think about it it just makes me wanna break down and cry and she's ALWAYS on my mind!
Like I said, I'm sorry if this sounds like typical teenage hormones from another kid who feels like he found love but was sadly mistaken. But I'm just such an emotional wreck over this AMAZING girl and I just keep chasing this dream of a girl I obviously can't have.
God I'm so f***ing stupid... Why do I allow myself to get into this crap...