I've been seeing a chiropractor followed by a massage therapist about three times a week now for over a month now. What I thought would be physical healing has turned out to be mental as well. For years I haven't taken the problems that I have serious until I was forced into a state where I felt immobile to go into work. Broken, useless, and not up to my full potential. After the X-rays being taken there was the proof staring me in face, the fact that I needed help. So I put trust in my doctor that he had a plan to do just that. The crazy thing is that never in my life have I been so blown away by a place of business that truly cares about their clients. This place doesn't feel real, almost like it's a joke and one day I'll wake up to realize that. I'll put it this way, I was joking with my doctor that I doubt you ever heard this before but a part of me doesn't want to ever get better because I would miss this place too much.
The massage after my adjustment is like entering another state of mind. It helps that I vibe with the girl very well to the point we've become friends and her favorite client in the short amount of time I've been seeing her. When you're lying on that table be it face up or down you're forced to look at yourself. Add in a second voice to the voice that is already inside in your head and you have yourself a therapy session. You talk. She talks. And the more you talk, the more you share. No I haven't shared anything related to this site for those wondering. We've been more on the vibe of past trials, music, life, and self reflections.
I should mention I've started to bring in my own music for our sessions to share one of my passions with her. All very downtempo dub that fits the atmosphere perfect.
There's no denying that I'm not happy with where I currently stand. Looking at her, a twenty two year old girl who is already in a job she wants to make a career of impressed me and now I find myself jealous. I've always told myself I can do better but than I let thoughts like "it's stable" trick me into staying. Am I happy though? You take such a simple and direct question that ends up being that final driving point of the answer that you're not. Where I currently stand in employment, I'm disposable. I'm mentally exhausted of feeling like that. What's the point of only healing a half of yourself when you still have another half left untouched?
I do have some leads but for now I'm gonna lock in my five year anniversary working there which comes in June. After that I'm gonna get serious about accomplishing some goals I've left in the back burner of my head for entirely too long.
Which brings on a question that you can participate in as well. What are your current goals? Feel free to make them life goals if you wish.
My list in no order.
3. ...keep that frame of mind for all of the above
4. own Krueger themed wheels
5. make the big $, never turn into a snob as a result
6. grow old with Noname
7. laser ink of regrets out of my life, no more regrets
8. never forget who you are
9. snowboard till the day you die
10. give thanks wherever it should apply
Thanks for reading.