Sometimes, you're riding high on the roller coaster of AB/DL-ism: you find yourself in your favorite play-clothes, a nice dry (or soggy ) diaper and the whole world shines just a bit brighter. Other times, you're just pleased as punch staying in the adult-oriented realm; the diapers are in the closet, but you'd rather save them for a rainy day. Let's be honest: sometimes it rocks to be an adult.
Then there's that awkward in-between which I went through today. I had the whole house to myself (wife was at work), which meant I finally had one of those rare opportunities to regress. However, I just couldn't lock into that mindset. I wanted to, but when I got into the diaper, cuddled my Care Bear...the whole nine yards, I just didn't drop into that comfort zone. I felt like I was forcing it.
This has happened before to me and I've learned not to panic about it. I know the magic of it will return; I had one of my best regressions ever just a couple weeks ago. Still, it makes worry a little bit. What if there will be one last time that I enjoy wearing diapers?
I believe that AB/DL-ism is for life. I guess that's why the thought of losing it scares me a bit. It is such a source of comfort for me. I've accepted it as part of me, which helps me to move on with my adult life. Over the years, I've learned to balance playtime with other hobbies and more adult activities. I just don't want to get out of that balance and I guess I'm worrying over whether that's possible: to get too out of the AB/DL mode to the point where it's awkward to get back in to it.
Has anybody else worried about this or am I panicking over nothing?