I used to have a pretty active sex life before I had to start wearing diapers, and since then have only been with a single guy - who was into that sort of thing.
This morning, I found myself in bed with a second guy since becoming incontinent. I knew in advance that, while he wasn't sexually into dipes, he was understanding and didn't mind sharing the bed with me.
The problem I encountered was in the morning, being awoken by him reaching down into my dipe and trying to wank me off... Now, before dipes - I know this would have been awesome. Being woken up like that usually is. :P But for some reason, I found the whole thing to be incredibly unnerving and uncomfortable, and for the first time in such a situation, I actually wasn't sure how to react.
I went along with it, he demanded I take off the dipe so he could do me... but the whole while I couldn't stop feeling violated. What happened, happened. But I look back on this morning and I don't know why it made me feel so ashamed and uncomfortable. I mean, sex is awesome! Why should the fact that I have to wear a diaper at night change that?!
Yet apparently it did, and I don't understand why. I guess I just felt really vulnerable there, and I'm not use to situations of any sort being outside my control.
I dunno... is something wrong with me, that I should suddenly be having guilt trips over this? I don't know what went wrong.