In my time here, I've noticed a trend that many people in this community gravitate to diapers as a source of comfort. For some people, it's the security. For others, it's reassurance. But in most cases, people seem to use diapers as an emotional crutch. I'm not saying that's a bad thing- we all need things to get us through mentally and emotionally strenuous times. For many people here, diapers seem to be just the thing to do that.
However, I've always been the opposite. I'm highly self-conscious about my diapers. First, as I've said, I'm transgender. I'm a biological male and find men in diapers to be very, very unattractive. Exceptions exist, but for me, that's the rule. Wearing diapers tends to thusly increase my stress to involve body image issues. Moreover, there's the maturity aspect. Yes, adult babies are just that- MATURE adults who enjoy acting like babies. But I have difficulty losing myself in that. When I'm worried about the future or my career, diapers usually make me feel worse. They make me feel like a person who wants to be an ambitious go-getter in life, but chooses to wallow in strange hedonistic pleasures instead. Not that anything's wrong with that- just that I'm spending far too much time and energy focusing on the lower levels of basal gratification (diapers being a rather hedonistic pleasure) rather than higher ones (having a satisfying career and contributing to the world).
But that's when I'm feeling insecure and although they remain valid emotions, I also realize they can be somewhat rash. On the other hand, when things are going well is when I can really enjoy some diaper time. I recently finished a semester with a 4.0 GPA. When my final grades came in, I wore diapers every night for nearly a week (and most of the days) and loved every moment of it. When I'm on an emotional high, diapers are a nice pleasure to indulge in.
It's like beer. When I'm feeling down it may mask my concerns but I tend to just feel worse about plying myself with alcohol rather than doing something productive. But when I'm in a good mood and doing something I enjoy, a good beer makes me feel that much better.
So what do you think? Is there anyone like me that can only enjoy diapers when in a good, positive mood? I assume there are, but I haven't heard it nearly as much as the opposite.