I have been having thoughts of suicide several times everyday ever since I was little I thought about it as early as 6 years old that I can remember. I did great in school up until I was in 2nd grade. I've gotten honor roll several times. I Grew up without a father. My mother was a good mother and worked long hours to support us. I always had a pretty good relationship her. I would just have these moments when I would just explode in anger and yell and often would hit myself. I never hit her. As I grew up, school got worse for me. I had thoughts come and leave and always lost concentration. I had a hard time reading because of this. I still do today and its not just reading either. Even while I had a conversation with someone and just lose the topic and have no idea what it was. I cant keep a job. i get frustrated at the lack of professionalism of coworkers and employers also those customers who act stupid or take the customer is always right slogan too far. (my phone only allows so much text per post).
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Well a couple of days ago its gotten very bad with thoughts of suicide thinking of different ways to go. I had a knife to my wrist and I didnt in with it. Instead I decided to find some information on suicide because I would be hurting not just myself. I ended up finding mental disorders and seen that i had several symptoms of bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. I dont have the funds to seek help so I was wondering he anyone has any advice or references to get any kind of help without cost cause I foot have insurance or nothing.