For the past few weeks, I've been having some suicidal thoughts. I was in Baltimore for three days at a F.I.RS.T. Robotics competition but my mind was far off my team.
I was in the midst of a custody hearing that was happening down in Florida. it was for my 4 year old half brother, who i have never met, it was a morale thing that i even got involved.
Anyway, I had the father file a motion so i could appear telephonically, i also wrote a letter describing the stories i had heard about mother to the judge. (she left me when i was an infant)
As soon as my mother got wind of the motion, my mother who i had no contact with started calling me relentlessly (18 calls in three days). Once the court case was over (the case was left open) She left me a voice mail calling me a complete loser and a disposable child (i'm disabled)
Surprisingly i cried my eyes out after that. I guess the thoughts started there. I got back state-side and went back to school. I've given up on everything. My grades went from "B" to "F" in a week flat.
Happy thoughts? Some comforting words?