I've been reading this site for about a week now and I guess it's time to introduce myself! I'm a 32 year old woman, and have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for around 8 months.
To cut a very long story short I love my boyfriend a huge amount, but he had been very hesitant about committment, and I felt he had also been dishonest with me. He asked me to move in with him and then changed his mind, but made excuses rather than tell me outright.
Anyhow, I broke up with him recently. I want to get married and have children, and I felt if that wasn't in my future with him then I needed to move on and find someone who was able to meet my needs. It also hurt that I knew I was sure about him, but he seemed so unsure about me.
After a week of being apart, I went to talk to him to see if there was any point in me holding onto the hop that he might change his mind. He had alluded several times that I didn't know the "real" him and I told him straight that if he couldn't take a risk at this point in our relationship on telling me this big thing then our relationship was definitely over.
And so it all came out... his love for diapers.
I have no problem with this fetish (that's how I view it?). I have experimented in the past with various kinks, and I would like to think I am one of the most open minded people I know.
Since he told me I have asked him lots of questions, done loads of internet research and also played with diapers with him.
My main concerns have been that:
- He will want to involve diapers with sex every time we are in bed
- That he views me as a kind of mother figure
He has reassured me that neither of those are anything to worry about, but I know that it is very important to me that I feel wanted and desired sexually as a woman and not just attractive as someone who will facilitate his fantasy.
This is clearly a need that will always be there for him, and I think I'm ok with that. It was important enough to him to nearly lose our relationship over, and that scares me a bit, but I am trying to look at it in a different way... and that is that he was struggling with whether he could abandon his needs entirely to be with me as he felt he couldn't tell me.
This now feels like a really long post (sorry!). I think what I'm asking for is any reassurance, or advice or support that anyone could give...