Okay I'm gonna be up-front here and just get straight down to the point.
Basically someone who knows me personally found diaper pics that I had uploaded (I know it was stupid) and well basically at the end of my senior year (last year) quite a few people knew, people I really didn't need nor want knowing -_-. But that's not what I'm here to inquire about I'm over that I left that area for college and well didn't look back well just yet anyways, but I just had to give some info to clarify what I need to ask.
Well....oddly enough the previous images had found their way across the computer of one person who I'd never thought I'd meet in that bizarre way. Last November a guy who had seen the photos added me to facebook
He didn't mention the pic whatsoever,
(I'd learn later by inquiring as to what prompted him to add me which he responded "I saw where somoene had posted immature photos of you" way to be nice about it and not be a jerk eh?)
he was nice, kind, etc... well basically perfect and he's now currently my boyfriend (coincidence that we live close by). He's still the same but now that we've been together for a while he well...um...wants to know what was up about all of it anyways. I really just don't have it in me to explain it. I mean I guess I was silly to hope that it'd never come up.
He's not rude, never has been, I mean seriously I can't think of anything he's done wrong except for maybe call me too much (repeatedly) when I start to write papers just a couple hours before they're due.
I just don't know what I need to say =/; and another odd thing is that when I'm with him and stuff for some reason I just don't care about diapers. They lose any and all appeal they once had. Don't want anything to do with them zip zilch zero
What should I do? I suspect he could possibly have some kind of attraction to it (don't ask me what, idk), but no matter how hypocritical it may sound if he did...I don't know if it could work.
I guess I just have two different ideals when it comes to when I just want "fun" and then a serious relationship, and I don't want to mix the two =/
Sorry I'm kinda odd and this post is kind of long but I guess I um idk I feel like it's okay for it to be this long. I just need to be able to talk to him; I hate the fact that he knows, claims he doesn't understand what's wrong and why I can't tell him, and if I weren't scared of him leaving me (Highly doubt it'd happen, but we all have our fears) I'd tell him :/. I mean if his first impression didn't push him away -_- surely just the truth wouldn't either right?
I know this post is long and maybe even kind of disorganized, but please some helpful advice would be dearly appreciated right now =/.