So here's the deal...
I'm in a long term relationship and before I moved in with my girlfriend I wanted to tell her about my desires and feelings regarding my habits. This was by far the hardest thing I've ever had to do, and I was totally stressed out when I told her. The reason why I told her was two-fold, I didn't want her to freak out if she came home one day to find me wearing a diaper and dealing with that mess, (no pun, I just wet) and two, if I was lucky, maybe she would want to be a part of that side of me. Thankfully she was totally cool about it, although she was weirded out at first (which was completely understandable). After that, I moved in and we really didn't discuss it further. After a few months of being together, I was really jonesing to wear and bought a pack. She got concerned because she thought it was something lacking within our relationship that caused me to buy. I explained it had nothing to do with her, it was just part of who I am, with or without her. I also bought a pacifier online and I was secretive about it, but she ended up being really understanding. Sometimes she will let me wear (when we are both inebriated, usually) and a couple of times she has diapered me.
Lately, I have only been wearing when I'm home alone and she is working or away, the DL issue has always been some sort of a military thing (don't ask, don't tell...) and it's totally fine, but I constantly have to watch the time and hide my things in my stash before she gets home. This totally makes me feel like I'm back in high school, hiding not only my diapers, but my feelings and who I am as well. I don't want to make my girlfriend feel awkward or have our relationship strained, at the same time I really just want to be a little more out in the open (pacifier usage, maybe wearing) and I don't care if she participates or not. I find it hard to communicate regarding these issues. I know I am SUPER lucky to have somebody who loves me for who I am and understands me and I thank my lucky stars every day for that. Maybe I'm just being too selfish or wanting more than I can and should have, I just wish she would acknowledge that part of me so I don't feel so....confined.
Has anybody been in a similar situation? I was just wondering if I could get some advice as to how to approach her and what I should say.