These past two weeks have been really frustrating for me. I've worked 14 days straight 3rd shift. I've had no time to myself, when ive been home and awake I've had my two toddlers to watch while my wifes at work. Been wanting some diaper time and have had all these mixed emotions and it seems like I just get too angry over nothing and it's ruined whole days. I swear I wonder if I'm not bipolar sometimes. I've felt selfish because I've got frustrated over working or having to watch the kids and wanting some me time. This makes me feel like a bad person but I know know no matter what I will always put my family first, their the world to me. Been making me depressed lately. Just need to find balance I guess. I don't know if anyone else has had similar issues but I don't want to devote all my attention to diapers and I don't so don't get me wrong. Sorry I've just had ALOT of different emotions thats running around in my head and needed to vent. But as my title says, about time. It's 5 30 in the morning and I am laying here on the couch with an abena x plus on after over two weeks and as of right now am feeling much better. I just don't want to keep repeating this cycle in my head everytime I have to go awhile undiapered. They're really turning into a must have stress reliever for me since I've been out in the open these last few months with my wife not to mention quitting smoking a few months ago tof. I'm an addict. If I could just wear more often Would probably help big time. Well I'm gonna shut up now and enjoy this alone time before turning over to sleep. Sorry for ranting so long.