Hmmm, typing this after a meeting.
Ok, to start, I'm not flaming or criticizing any religion, or lack of.
So, I have been a Jehova's Witness since birth, and have never stopped attending regularly to the meetings, assemblies, preaching, etc.
The story is, I was born into it, and my dad, mom, and sister were very into it. Well, my dad stopped being one after an incident (which I wont get into), and my mom got very depressed.
Now, I want out. But it's not that easy. There are plenty of reasons I should, but there are also a lot that make me not do it. Some are: I don't want my mom to get very depressed, I don't want my grandma to have a heart attack (sincerely, that's what I think will happen), and don't want to ruin my mothers and sisters reputation on the congregation.
But, I really want to get out, because I want to be my own person. Both my sister and dad know this, but don't really care. They're keeping their mouths shut. Some reasons I want to get out are: I think that what they teach isn't what I really believe, I feel I'm doing labor for free, it's very time consuming, and it restricts me from doing soooo much stuff. Also, the teens in my congregation are such hypocrites, they do a lot of stuff behind their parents backs.
Do I have to tell my mother? Does it have to be tactful, or tell her after a fight? What if she doesn't accept how I think, and sends me to the elders to get "fixed"? What about my grandmas health?
Any suggestions, please. I'm standing at the crossroad...
p.s. My dad is in Panama right now for 2 weeks...