I thought I would work up the nerve to finally tell my story. I don't know if I should have put this somewhere else, so if I should have, I'm sorry.
The first time I can remember wanting diapers was when I was about 4 or 5. I would put on a bunch of pairs of underwear so I would waddle and I could feel the bulk between my legs. A few years after that I would try to get the neighbor kid to trade me his bottle and diapers, he never did. Some time after this, I remember going to the baby sitters and I would play house with the younger kids. I would always try to find a way to end up being the baby. Then it was not until late middle school that I would by my first diapers. They were the largest baby diapers I could find. I would manage to tape them together to make them big enough to fit. Over time I worked my way to pull ups then to adult diapers. Not long after I got into adult diapers, I worked up the nerve to tell my girlfriend. She was not at all thrilled, especially when I told her that I would even use them. After a lot of talking with her, I made her a promise that I would not ever wear diapers again unless I needed them or she said I could. That was several years ago, and we are now engaged. However, more recently she has been more accepting and is trying to learn about all this. She still does not let me wear, but I love her and I am willing to wait.
And please, before any of you try telling me to dump her if she will not let me be me, cram it because you don't know true love. To everyone else, I am sorry for being harsh, I just have had some less than wanted reactions the one other time I have talked about this.
Also, I really don't know if there is a sexual aspect of this for me. I have noticed, however, that I do seem to want them a lot more when I have a lot of drama going on in my life.