Hi, I've been a member for about a month now, so I'm sorry for not introducing
myself sooner. The main reason is that I'm quite shy and always have been.
I thought I'd be embarrased by my clumsiness and I suppose I mostly wanted to remain anonymous too. Anyway, here goes: I enjoyed sports, reading, and school
in my youth. I spent a couple of years in college, then took a leave of absence
and ended up not finishing. I joined the Navy instead and spent 12 years in the
submarine force until the stress became too much for me and I became seriously
depressed and attempted suicide. I have been in treatment for mental illness ever since. I was a bedwetter as a child then became interested in diapers and have worn and used them ever since to relieve stress and loneliness. I later returned to bedwetting and had daytime accidents as well. I am now diapered 24/7 and have been treated unsuccessfully for my incontinence, which has been the case now for many years. I have always been a closeted DL and AB but decided to tell my VA caregivers about the diapers (not the AB stuff) several years ago since I thought I could gain some understanding and acceptance of my behaviors. I also have struggled with gender identity issues since my adolescence but I have shared that with my caregivers as well. I have been in continuous treatment for mental illness for many years and now believe I may be slowly recovering. My main interests now are my computer, watching movies on TV, and listening to music. I have been a "lurker" as you say on websites for incontinence support and AB/DL as well as trangender issues. I am also somewhat of a "shopaholic" and a hoarder, behaviours which became quite problematic for me ( also gambling, but that's behind me
now). I have been becoming more and more interested in AB behavior recently and I finally decided to reveal this side of me to my therapist in the hopes of gaining acceptance and understanding of what made me this way. I love reading stories of regression and basically anything pertaining to diapers.
I have found this site to be the most interesting and helpful so far and now that I have finally introduced myself, I hope to gain acceptance from you members and learn about your experiences, as well as share knowledge and
insight with you.
I'm sorry if this introduction seems long-winded but I have been into this lifestyle for a long time and have always felt comforted by it, and have a great deal of life experience (which I'll share with you later if you're interested and accepting of me). Thanks for listening!