Did anyone else try and do something to make it feel like you were wearing a diaper when you were younger? I'm talking about long before you were able to go to the shops on your own, or you had your own bank account. I realised the other day that I used to do all sorts of things as a kid, the ones I can remember I've put below.
At about age 4 I used to put on all my briefs under my pyjamas after I'd gone to bed, just to sort of feel the thickness of a nappy. I never did anything in them, just put them on, then took them off about 5 minutes later before going to sleep. This continued on and off for a few years.
When I was at boarding school, aged 7, I occasionaly put a pair of briefs on under my pyjamas (only one pair this time) and then would put random things in them, like a table-tennis ball, or a rolled up sock or something, to try and simulate a lump, as though I had messed. Looking back Im sure it was very unrealistic, but at the time it was abotu as close as I could get.
When I was about 10/11 I used to line my underpants with toilet paper to give a sort of crinkly effect. I never actually wet, cos I knew the paper wouldn;t absorb anything.
Finally when I was 14ish, whenever I was at home, (ie. during the holidays, so therefore had nothing to do) I used to wake up quite late, after my parents had gone to work. I always (almost every day) would put on a pair of briefs (I had switched to wearing boxers most of the time by then) and mess in them. I would then go staright to the bathroom, wet my pants, standing in the bath so as not to get the floor wet, and then spend maybe 5 minutes just being in wet/messy pants. I would then take them off, have a shower and wash them in the shower aswell, so they'd have time to dry before my parents got home.
I guess all this shows that I have a been a *BDL all my life, even if it took me many years to realise it was a fetish (if that's the right word), and then a few years after that to discover I wasn't the only one.