My best friend is getting married in a few weeks and she got the marriage license yesterday. First of all, I'm glad for her. I'm happy to see her so excited about something and I know the husband will do only good to her.
However, last night... I felt like going insane. All she talked about was getting the license, getting married, wedding parties, and even the bachelorette party... which I'm invited to cause I'm gay. (I felt a little insulted... because I'm gay, I could go... not that I'm a great friend or open or anything. DX ) But as she talked on about, I wanted to say that I don't wanna hear about it, but know for sure (from previous experiences) that would upset her and that she'll believe I'm always never happy for her.
I truly am happy for her, its just marriages are a sore subject for me. Maybe the fact that I'm gay, and can't get married, or the fact I believe marriage to be overrated. Let alone, the last two marriages I've went too never been good to me... the first being my first love marrying someone else, and my brother marriage forced me to move out. Maybe I fear worse to come to me when they do get married.
I don't know... just feel emotional stuck in situations where all she does is rant about the wedding and marriage, and all I can do is bite my tongue and listen.
So, asking for any advice and what to do... I hate biting my tongue, but don't wish to upset her (I know it would). And if anyone else dealt with times like this as well.