I have lurked the ab/dl community online for years and have only now started writing.
A very sensitive person, but one who has a love for my reality. My psycho-sexual attachment to diapers has probably inspired my psycho-sexual connection with engineering, I have an intrinsic(many people i know say spooky) ability to relate to tools and machines that goes back to my earliest memories. I am a highly skilled but easily frustrated builder and thinker. I love conciousness for its existence and choose not to read too much into the deep philosophy problems.
My fearful attachment to society tends to make me a victim of my own reality, I have a difficult time relating to people because my process and theirs is very different.
I am writing to the community because I began working independently with artificial intelligence and artificial conciousness and am looking for others who have similar thinking. I believe that people are self modifying informational processing systems that can be bounded in a manner similar to how the uncertainty principle in quantom mechanics works.
Despite this, life takes on meaning as the things(and hopefully knowledge) I create transcend time and people.
Despite my intrinsic seeming skill and desire for understanding, I have not obtained a college degree because the college environment inspires fear in me. I have, on the other hand, a great love of books, music, animated film, and articles and try to spend a healthy amount of time absorbed in my reading.
I hope my writings to come inspire understanding and tolerance.