Hello everybody! I rarely post, but today I come in search of some support and maybe a little reassurance from my fellow ab/dls. Well, unfortunately, I'm not doing to well. I apologize in advance if my story reads as graphic or inappropriate, but I'm at the end of my rope and knew that this community would in all likelihood understand me best.
Around 8 months back, I was routinely scouring the interwebs for pictures of standard ab/dl material. Unfortunately upon my searching, I unintentionally stumbled upon a photograph of a very young minor in a diaper. Even more unfortunately, I found myself aroused by the photo. Now, I'm aware that with a fetish such as this, it's the object or situation that's arousing, not the subject. All arousal attained from the photograph would not have been actually physical. For this reason, I brushed it off for the following months. Unfortunately for me, I also have obsessive compulsive disorder, and for the last few months have been playing over the situation in my head to a relentless degree, almost to the point where I ask myself nearly continuously if I am a pedophile because of this instance. Of course, I have never felt/am incapable of feeling or imagining even the slightest attraction to a minor in reality.
So now I'm here, consistently racking my mind and questioning myself if it's possible that I could somehow be what I despise most. I know that I'm letting my thoughts control me, and I apologize for spilling such an odd scenario onto all of you wonderful people. For the ocd, i've started taking medication and therapy, so hopefully it will improve soon. It's a pretty terrible condition that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. I'm starting to let this ridiculous thought take over my life. Does anybody have any insight into my situation? Maybe some words to quell my completely needless suffering?
I feel profoundly blessed to be a part of this wonderful community, and look forward to any responses!
Peace and love!