I am still a newbie here, but I have been looking for a few days now and to my surprise I have not found a post of ya all's experiences of finding out that "Wow, I'm not the only one who likes to wear diapers!"
For me this was like a revelation from heaven! I grew up wanting to wear a diaper and never had any clue that I was not the only one on the planet who felt this way. This caused a lot of anxiety for me and an extreme loss of self-esteem.
Even when I started college, I still didn't know there were others. I remember driving through the mountains to college one night, looking out on the vast lights of houses and homes and thinking (even praying) that someone else must have these feelings! I felt so ashamed and questioned, "What is wrong with me?!! I am a rough and tumble cowboy, working on a ranch, not afraid to get hurt, and too tough to cry! So why in the heck do I want to sometimes revert back to wearing diapers and snuggle with a teddy bear!"
It wasn't until I was probably 23 (OK yes, I must have led a sheltered life) when I was surfing the net and punched in some term to search about this, and somehow managed to get to ******'s Den( Didn't know if I can give out other website names). I was so excited to find out there are others, and a lot of others, with this same desire. Suddenly, my world opened up and I came to be able to accept myself and more importantly, my actual AB/DL self.
So that's my story!! Today I am still this same cowboy, with brushy mustache, wrangler jeans, and hat. But I enjoy my AB/DL side and am happy not to just be one of the rest of the crowd. I look back to that day when I found that website, it was quite a long time ago. I still never go AB/DL in public. --but just knowing you're not alone, what an awesome thing!
Note: Until finding ADISC a few days ago, I still never shared my AB/DL self with anyone else. So thanks everyone for making me feel welcome and be able to share my story!
Hopefully others can join in with their experiences and make this an interesting post and thread.