What is True Infantilism?
Have you ever read this article? If not - I'd recommend it...if not just to hear a quasi-scholarly opinion on the matter.
What did you think of it? How does it fit your experience?
For those of you who are not going to read it no matter what - she essentially lays out the psychology for adults wanting to wear diapers, have pacifiers, dress in baby clothes, etc... The author argues that it's different than a fetish for a variety of reasons including the fact that it very often begins for individuals far before sexuality really develops as well as the fact that it is persistent in individuals despite therapy and other attempts to 'fix' it.
As for me, when I read it several years ago, it was a good first step in helping me understand how this urge/desire/whatever developed in me and also at 'cutting myself some slack'. Up until then, I had been steeped in a lot of shame and guilt - and had thought pretty negatively of myself because of diapers. Her opinion helped that begin to shift in me.
For me, it really helps explain why diapers can be something sexually charged or not at all depending on the situation or mood I'm in - it also helps explain why I wanted diapers when I was like 5 and had no idea what sex even was.