to start ill explain the thread title,
i often feel like two different people inside my own mind. and my adult baby desires are a great example of this IMO
the way i feel is that i must be a baby, i just cant be happy unless im allowing myself to be one,
the way i think/measure/reason i know i must not do anything imature or babylike,
i know i know you all have the same conflictions within you. i suppose i feel a bit different from most ab/dl's with this, because i contemplate deeply on this confliction very very often, and although i always come to the same cliche conclusions, such as "there's no reason not to" or "i should embrace ab/dl because i enjoy it" i never am satisfied with any of those answers, i'm a very reasoning/analytical person, so i know this confliction will grow within me until my end or some yet unpercieved explanation comes around.
but dont let this impress upon you that im unhappy, oh far from it,
i am in my mid 20's, male, living on west coast usa, i have a daddy who i have a day or two with every week or two. but otherwise would consider my self straight if i had to choose,
more accuratly im probably a-sexual, wherein i couldnt even ever hope to get anything close to an erection without a diaper being involved,
i've loved diapers ever since i can remember, for never a clear reason, i never had any trauma in my childhood, and was potty trained early, didnt wear a diaper again till 13 when i had the ability to go buy them.
didnt even consider trying out anything AB until about 16, i fell into it pretty hard once i got the guts to try it, so hard in it now im convinced i would absolutely die a happy happy old man if i can have someone to baby me 24/7 to my end of days.
experience there is -
i have been diapered 247 for almost a year now, though ive tried i have not gained incontinence, my bladder still stays locked shut for hrs between wettings,
and my daddy has babied me for a week at a time here and there, when his schedule with work permits it.
i yearn for more babytime, though i am happiest i have been my entire life now that in the last few years im actualy getting some.
otherwise, i enjoy some video games, im a ps kinda guy, so ps3 is where its at, ive played fallout3 for over 700 hrs, and just started in on fallout 4/newvegas only pc games ive played is minecraft Minecraft
and starcraft 1 and 2.
other then being a baby, and playing video games, i love socialising with my closest friends , our discussions often breach very esoteric and paranormal topics, i like firearms and often go target shooting, i have a very intensly strong emotional passion for snowboarding, i never knew i could feel so extremely spiritualy elevated as i do when snowboarding (if that makes sense), and i have recently acquired a strong interest in studying conspiracy theories. frightening stuff.
oh and btw, im only posting an introduction because i was sent an email notifying me that i was placed on lurker status until i posted an introduction, and i dont appreciate the corner time just because i was too quiet! though i confess it has apparently done its job of trickin me into an intro.