Well, I usually don't ask much for support, but I feel like I need a hug and some advice.
A lot of my symptoms appear to match bipolar disorder, and my psychiatrist and I are beginning to work things out--but in the meantime, I'm having to cope with one hell of a series of "manic" episodes during the day (during classes).
And I feel particularly frustrated about it because I have finally discovered what I love to do--yet no matter how hard or what I try (deep breathing, deep muscle relaxation, closing my eyes, etc.), I just can't shake the inevitable highs (or lows) that show up periodically. I just have these painfully intense rises in energy, and I have to commit 80-90% of my focus just on keeping myself calm during class--it's dramatically affecting my ability to focus, so I'm barely retaining anything the professor is showing me.
Is there anything I can do during or before class--pending possible medication--that I am not doing already to help minimize or turn around these intense moments? (exercising regularly, eating nutritiously, getting 7-8 hours of sleep every night [I KNOW lack of sleep makes it worse!], deep breathing, deep muscle relaxation...)
I've tried to deal with this for quite a many years without medication, and I have a lot of tricks up my sleeve--including diapers--but I feel like I'm reaching my limits.
Is there anything I could do to better cope?
(I could describe my symptoms, but I think it is clear to both myself, my parents, my psychologist and psychiatrist that something is amiss--and bipolar is the most-likely culprit at this point, before blood tests rule out any physical diseases)