I still think it will take me awhile to actually accept who I am; although, thanks to you all I am coming more to terms with it and realizing how infantilist I have been since I was very young.
I had decided that I was a toddler for a long time because I thought that was some better than being totally an infant. But my baby ways and dreams give over.
I did wear in public tonight and I was a little embarrassed as I wet and then wet again but no one knew.
I bought baby food and some canned peas and mashed them so I am now trying my first baby foods besides just fruit. I have ate the fruits on and off.
I also got some rice cereal to put in my whole milk... couldn't go for the formula though.
Does anyone else have similar stories of accepting... or do you have problems accepting who you are in this lifestyle?
I wish I had someone to feed me but I can do it myself... at least I'm not totally helpless but I wish I did have someone to hold me and care for me.
Now I don't know about defecating except that my tummy is torn up and if it happens it happens...
But I also think along with my counselor wanting to learn more and help me remove my shame that it has opened up my mind so much....
Now if I could just get off the baby track for a little while and get some homework and research done!