Hi. I'm a little shy with all this but I came here to just read and find out information when I need it and perhaps to chat a bit or find comfort at times. I am I guess an infantilist. I am not into the bondage scenario and do not want to be forced to do anything. I take a pacifier most nights when I sleep and sometimes during the day depending on if I am home or not. I sometimes take from a sippy cup or a bottle and I sometimes wear pull-ups. I feel like I am a baby-2 year old, depending on the day, trapped in an adult body. I do know that I was abused and traumatized as a baby and young child and often I wonder if that is what has led me to be as I am. I have always had these desires since I can remember. My mom used to fuss at me because I chewed on my shirts; I now know I did that for comfort.
I am in school working on my second masters degree. I am currently supposed to be in class but I am under the weather. I am actually working on a ministry degree; however, after being abused by my pastor it has left me in utter confusion. I know that this is my call and I want to follow it but it is so hard for me to decide what is okay and what is not.
I do believe in an upside down kingdom, whereas we view that you have to be perfect to be in connection to God that really He has compassion on those who are hurting and those who have been abused and traumatized. I believe that the Gospel is for all people and that if Jesus were here today he would do what he did over 2000 years ago and go to people who are hurting and sit with them and learn about them and not criticize them for who they are. I also believe that after learning more about Koine Greek (Biblical Greek), and let me be careful in saying this is my opinion at this point in my life, that God doesn't abhor those who are sexually different from being straight. I believe that he destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah not because of the lifestyle but because the people didn't care who it was but they were going to have sex with them as in the man was going to take the angel of the Lord. I say this so that you know what I believe and also to let you know that I am not here to judge or to argue religion.
I am an avid sports fan. I love football. I am an Auburn fan first and foremost and also a Colts fan. I have loved Peyton Manning since he started at Tennessee. I am not an annoying fan. I do call things as they are. My teams are not the best in my eyes but I believe in them and I love them and that is enough for me. Although, I do get mad over Auburn football!!!!
I enjoy playing on the computer and if I am not playing then I am usually researching or translating Greek on the computer. I spend the majority of my day on the computer in some form or fashion. I enjoy Pogo games.
I also enjoy shopping. I do some online shopping but I rather get out and drive as I find it relieves stress. I like to get out in the fresh air when it is not too hot or not too cold and enjoy the breeze and shop until I can't stand it any longer.
I like to eat as well. I would rather not cook if I can help it but enjoy food out. My favorite foods are Steak, BBQ (pork mostly) and Pizza. I could eat Pizza about everyday of the week. My favorite pizza is usually pepperoni and black olives. I also love spinach, sometimes mushrooms, sometimes green olives on my pizza as well. I spend most of my money of food.
Right now I am enjoying Gerber Graduates Yogurt Drops. I also like the freeze dried snacks. I will occasionally drink from a bottle or sippy cup, as I mentioned before, but usually I drink Organic 2% milk. I love organic milk and foods, I think they are the best. I have a bunch of tummy trouble and organic foods seem to reduce that some.
I love to talk to friends but sometimes I am very shy. I enjoy chatting once I get to know people.
Anyway, I guess that is all I have for now. Oh and sometimes I may not be around because again I struggle with myself and if things are okay and what not but I think it is for the most part. I know I get very upset and whiney if I don't have my paci in so many days.