@this may be a bit explicit, but I WILL be a tasteful as possible, and put everything behind a cut (this is the spoiler button, no?).
backstory: my boyfriend has just turned 19, and I myself will soon be 16 (it's legal where we live, because we were together before he was of legal age, and our age difference is less than 4 years). We will celebrate our 2-year anniversary in 2.5 weeks!!!
a month or two ago, I wet the bed by accident (combination nightmare, UTI- Those are hoorrrrrible), and told him. Yadda yadda yadda it grew from there, and eventually he got up the huevos to ask me if he could 'be my daddy'.
little did he know I've been a tb/dl since the age of...probably 8. So, I was like UM PSH YES? And we've been working on it since then.
it started out great. I mean, we were both a bit shy and when I would call him at like 3 AM after a nightmare, it would embarrass him to ask me 'are you wet' out loud, but it is certainly going better now!
now, we've developed two sides to this daddy/littlegirl thing: innocent and fetish. The innocent side of this is the side I prefer most. He wants to hold me, give me baths, change me, etc. He calls me his little girl, and asks 'is baby tired' and -okay, no gushing, Love, thats enough. This, of course, I LOVE and am ecstatic about. He even bought me a pacifier. It just makes me feel very very safe and loved in daddy's arms, with the bink in my mouth, and my diaper getting warm in his lap. (wow. haven't told him the extent to which I like it, yet. makes me sound like an awful freak...)
however, I'm NOT comfortable with it. I know it's selfish, but I'm not...comfortable with it. Also, I'm afraid to involve the Little Love in sexual activities. I'm not sure if I want her to participate in them. I feel like it would ruin the innocence of the daddy/littlegirl relationship.
but, at the same time, I would really like to tell him the extent to which i'd like to be babied sometimes (i really do like diapers, quite a LOT actually, and would love for him to maybe feed me from a bottle, which we discussed halfheartedly for thirty seconds, once. I'd also love for him to change me, especially during the night if I wet, so I can wake up it...), but I'm afraid to tell him how much I really do LIKE being babied, because I'm afraid he's just not as into it as I am, and that it will scare him off. edit: not from me or the relationship, but from the fetish and the parts we currently enjoy
so, do I owe him his fetish if I want the extent of mine fulfilled? I love him and would do anything for him, it just makes me a bit uncomfortable.
also, how do I...let him know exactly what I want? Without embarrassing the hell out of myself :/