So it seems I started to regain continence a bit. Of course there's still the running to the bathroom and such still, so my bladder seems to still hate me, but I've noticed that my diaper has been dry on more occasions lately. Now it seems it happens *maybe* once or twice a week these past few weeks (on an airplane for one). I have even started to try going without a diaper for a while, mostly on weekends (and with a few spare diapers and change of pants nearby). Of course all this change is no thanks to an unhelpful urologist...
So, while I should be happy, and I guess I am about the health thing, diapers have so quickly become a part of my life recently that I am already missing them and feel uncomfortable without them.
This comes with many problems though - namely that it would be weird to tell my partner that, while the leaking has nearly stopped, I don't want to give up my diapers. I mean I can't imagine giving the toilet up completely - but i'm sure the enjoyment of the diaper is a security thing on one hand, and and just maybe liking diapers in general on the other - as in the feel or the emotional gratification of them.
On top of that, I fear not wearing a diaper could in some way make me stressed to not have them on "just in case" and cause me to wet *more* when undiapered.
Perhaps this is me phasing into the DL category now. Just a weird predicament I guess. Sorry for the lament.
Thoughts? Similar experiences?