This is a vanity post, that probably should have been a blog, but fuck it, this is a milestone for me.
I got my one-month sobriety coin! Just a few days ago. Everybody at the meeting expected me to say something when the coin was given to me, I did not know what to say. I did not stay sober for one month because I knew any of the answers to a lifetime of sobriety, that's for damn sure. I just thanked the people who kept talking to me, and left it at that....
Hell, the first couple of weeks of sobriety after my last relapse was pretty rough. Thankfully, it is getting somewhat easier. I now have 37 days without alcohol, and almost four months without weed. More money for video games, oh, my!
I did not think AA would be able to help me, you can thank Penn & Teller for that. I went to my first meeting around three months ago, and it was totally not what I was expecting. People there were lively, friendly, very open. There is no self-loathing amongst the longtimers at the meetings I have been going to. Many of people have fallen harder than I have, yet they have picked themselves up and now are living very good lives. That's enough motivation to keep me going on the program.
So, that is where I am at now.
I know some people love to slam on AA, and that's OK. That does not affect my recovery one bit.