Well I started my first year of college last wednesday and I made a proclamation to myself. I promised myself that with this migration to a "new world", I would leave behind in the old world my depression, anxiety, past grudges, ect. Basically I will come to college with the books on my back and the knowledge in my head and start a new life, one which will enable me to make friends and have a happier, overall better life than I did in High School.
With this promise I made, I wanted to not worry about money so much and not be obsessed with it. However, just going over my expenses and income I am freaking out, since I will be running at a loss every month. I already work 3 jobs and am considering getting a 4th to even out my balance sheet a bit. I go to school 4 days a week and work 3, every single minute not spent on school or studying is spent on working. I am doing everything I can t learn new skills to make more money.
I wanted to join a club or two and find ways to make friends, since my therapist said I needed to not work all the time, which I would like to do(make more friends). You know...I want to have an enjoyable college experience. But every time I look at income and look at expenses I cut as my as i can and still come up a bit short and to be honest it terrifys me to death to think of being financially crippled coming out of college.
Should I just say "fuck it" to the finances and figure out what to do when the time comes to figure that out? Should I keep running at a loss? Should I try to have a good time in college? Or should I keep working my 72 hour weeks, or should I step this up to putting in 100 + weeks?
*with the way my schedule is right now, I don't have time to see my psych.
I just need some advice. (I'm also a commuter student)