Alright all my life I've had anger issues. I'll just up and explode. I'll curse, rage, road rage, and just not control myself well enough when I'm angry. Note I'm not destructive but I'll just yell and be very cynical about everything in life. This has led my fiancee to threaten to leave me if I don't' change my ways.
See here is my situation... Fiancee didn't have enough money to pay rent because of some issues in the University. I got angered. If something happens to her financially I always get angry. Not at her. Just in general it's anger that has no real output. No real reason. I just get angry with the way the world works to the point where I'll endanger my life and the life of others when I'm driving. I'll start shaking and want to punch shit and what not. I also have a pretty short fuse when it comes to stuff like that. It's stuff that shouldn't happen... anyway I get angry because of serious situations like that.
anyway main point is my stress is affecting my fuse. anything can set me off and well infantilism doesn't help much sometimes. My parents and fiancee have told me to fix it or well they'll fix it for me. and I was more then willing to comply because it's not healthy and well I understand I'm being a raging douchebag. I'm normally kind cool headed and what not. It's just certain times I'll lose my temper to no end. It doesn't last long but I don't know why. I've always been like this but now that I'm an adult it's worse then ever.... So my question is.... How do I manage it? I have no money for counseling right now or the time really. I just want to try it on my own with my families help if it doesn't work I'll seek counselling. But I'm fairly sure I can fix it I have a pretty strong will and I can do anything I set my mind to. Essentially I just want to do this not for my fiancee but for myself too.
Keep in mind I don't harm anyone. or destroy anything. I just feel like doing it the most I'll do is punch a wall or something.... but that can turn into something much worse in a rage of mine. and I want to prevent this.... I can't keep a clear head... emotions overtake me? So yeah please just give me advice to chill this out.....