Well first things first I want to establish that I am not some teenage disaster that is claiming he wants to take himself out of the world because the stress of forgetting to do his homework is just too much. Here is the real thing that I wanted to discuss, When posting on a thread about purges in the Teen Baby Forums. I realized that my purges have become even more stressful with each one that hits me and its seems to grow and grow. I am a Teen baby flat out and I have known that now for about 2 years, ive been into diapers in some sort for roughly 4-5 years. One reason that I really enjoy being a teen baby is that it really allows me to get away from everything and enjoy something that not only is enjoyable but usually a stress reliever for me. The issue comes down to feeling bad about being a teen baby and I know I am not the only one that feels this way. Most often it hits me when I am out enjoying normal things like hanging out with friends, playing soccer, or working on indie films (hobby of mine). When I am out enjoying these things I feel guilty for enjoying Diapers and such, often when I do have diapers it leads to a purge which leads to guilt. Every time that I do this I feel like I really just need to stop all of this and get out while I still can. I often throw away what little baby stuff I have and also try to lock myself out of my e-mails and Tb website accounts. Then sometimes a day later, sometimes a week, sometimes 2 months later I just come back and start all over. This is the first time ive been on ADISC but I feel safer here and like people care so I bring my issue here. Im afraid that the stress will just build up to be too much, when I was in middle school I was very close to cutting and when I got caught with being a TB, I considered suicide. I really dont have those impulses anymore but im afraid I might fall back into things. Not nessicarly cutting or suicide...just maybe making poor choices to replace things. I am in highschool now and ive done a little drinking and ive smoked about 3 ciggerates ever and that was only because i was at warped tour. To be honest I suppose this is more of just a rant when I really get down to it but any suggestions from more weathered TBs, ABs, ect.