Feeling down today...
I'm new here. I've been around ADISC numerous times checking out the various forums and I have finally decided to join! I need good people who FULLY understand me in my life.
I go by V or Duckie, I'm 22, I enjoy playing soccer.. and that's pretty much it. I'm a simple girl for the most part. I identify myself as a DL with AB tendencies, usually when I've had a bad day and I just want to be comforted, which never happens. I usually stay home when possible so I can fantasize about my dreams of being babied and just plainly cared about.
I doubt myself a lot, I blame myself for things I have little control over, I am stressed out Monday-Friday 9-5. On the weekends I'm depressed because I feel most alone (my girlfriend would rather spend her free time elsewhere). I do not have any close friends who know everything about me. My girlfriend is the only one who knows everything about me, but understands little. I have one friend who knows and fully understands only about my constant battle with SI. I have trouble asking for help, especially when I consider that other people have more important things to do.
I find happiness in my fantasy land. I wear diapers, pretend I am little with no responsibilities, no burdens. That someone cares enough to check my diaper, and change me when I'm wet. To hold my hand while crossing a street, or kissing me when I get hurt.
I hope to gain a friend and be one to those who would want me. I find comfort in simply knowing someone cares and that I have someone if I need to talk.