My name is David, I'm 24 years old and live in Holland. I've been a DL for over ten years now and to be honest, I'm currently finding it more difficult to cope with it than ever before.
I think I got interested in diapers when I was 4 or 5 years old. I had lots of sleepovers at the neighbors. The girl next door, who was slighty younger than I was, still wet the bed and had to wear diapers every night, while I didn't. It made me jealous. As we grew apart over the following years, the diapers disappeared to the background, until I turned twelve. I found baby diapers at my grandparents' house, took a couple of them home and got hooked ever since, especially when I found out I wasn't the only one enjoying diapers.
At that time, wearing diapers was highly exciting and electrifying. I would do it when I returned from school (as my parents wouldn't be home) or at night. I often bought Drynites (a.k.a. Goodnites) and at some point worked up the courage to get a pack of adult diapers from a local pharmacy. I enjoy the feeling of innocence, the immediate and deep relaxation, the enormous luxury of not having to get out of bed as well as the obvious naughtiness of doing something I shouldn't supposed to be doing.
I've met various AB and DL girls in the country and enjoyed every single meeting. It's so great to be able to share your experiences with someone else and have your DL feelings seem like normal for a while. I'm really grateful for this.
Nowadays, I'm a college graduate in communication, living at my own place. I can wear diapers as often and much as I like, but I'm starting to have a sort of identity crisis. The sheer and plain enjoyment has largely been replaced by uncertainty and loads of questions. The first thing is, I'm dating a wonderful girl who doesn't know anything about this. I dread the day I'll have to hell her (or any other girl I might stay with) about being a DL. I've told others in the past with results everywhere between failure and success. Some had respect, others were blatantly negative, even mean.
The second thing is, I don't feel this fits well in my personal life. It's all so risky, quirky, weird... I find it difficult to accept this part of myself, even if I had done so for many years in the past. The constant need of keeping this a secret makes me feel lonely when it comes to diapers.
By registering here, I hope to find new, wonderful people to connect with and talk to. I hope to find friendship and understanding. I enjoy reading about other's experiences and opinions.
If you're still reading, thanks for doing so, I really appreciate it. Hopefully we'll meet here soon. I should probably end by saying that generally I'm a happy and cheerful person, just when it comes to diapers I'm a little, let's say, confused.
Talk to you soon!