I haven't been posting recently because I've been busy with work, band, etc.
I've been feeling really lonely and just lost for a while now. I'm happy with my friends and everything, but I have no one to identify romantically. I mean, finding the perfect girl is proving to be really difficult, especially with a fetish as "abnormal" as mine, as my mother puts it. She just makes me feel like shit every time she prods me about it. And it's bad enough that I'm humble to a fault and have zero self esteem. I just don't know what to do anymore.