My name is Alyssa and I'm a 21 (22 in July!) year-old college student in the middle of nowhere, Michigan. When I'm not giving customers their medium number two without onions and tomatoes and a chocolate Frosty that they ordered, I'm nose-deep in a book reviewing stuff for the LSAT. Whoever said that college was fun was full of it, haha. Only a semester left until I'm done and can move on to... more school. Yay! :-/ I'm a senior finishing up my political science major and currently studying my butt off with the hopes of getting into law school. It's gonna be a long summer and I think that's (partially) what attracted me to a site like this.
My history with diapers.... oh jeez... a part of me feels really weird doing this because no one (and I mean no one) knows I'm into this stuff. I think I realized I had a thing for diapers beyond necessity when I was around nine or so but it didn't really materialize until a few years later. I was one of those awesome kids that wet the bed until I was twelve and my parents' awesomely embarrassing solution was pull-ups. When I snapped out of that and finally got to know what it was like to wake up dry every morning, I think I felt like something was missing. It took me a bit to piece it together that it was the diapers themselves I liked. During my early teens, I'd sneak myself into my old left-over pull-ups once in a while when I was home alone just to try them on. I knew I was weird and felt isolated until I began to research this stuff online and found out that, holy crap, I'm not the lonely diaper girl I thought i was. I am still coming to terms with this whole thing even after the past couple years of wearing frequently. Since having a place of my own, I wear around my apartment frequently. Diapers have become a huge release for me. They're so comforting when I don't feel good or need a pickmeup. I've realized there's definitely something sexual attached to it, too, but I try not to think of it as a fetish in the same way as something gross like feet. If anything, it's a lot like smoking for me.
I joined this site to connect to like-minded people. Even with support sites and the knowledge that there are thousands of infantilists in a lot of forms, I'm prolly never gonna come clean about it to anyone I know and would likely freak the heck out if anyone found out. But whatever, everyone is weird in someway.
Sorry for the novella. I tend to ramble.