I am new here and looking for answers to a variety of questions. I figured searching the site would be the best way to learn, but maybe posting and getting perspectives on particulars would be more expedient. (Plus, there are a lot of things I am not looking for...)
I think I like diapers, but haven't worn any since I was potty-trained. I have had the desire to wear one since right after my training (and my younger brother's arrival/potty-training) and have finally gotten the courage to start talking with family and friends about this. At 21, there seem to be a lot of issues surrounding my desire(s?). What specifically am I attracted to? Is there any hope of escaping my desire? Is this sexual? What will my family/friends think? Is this something I should try or would it be better to continue to be ignorant, trying to fight how I feel?
So... I confided in a few close friends that I am planning on trying some diapers after I talk to my parents. I get the feeling they won't be too happy about it, but they might see some value in a little experimentation (a lot cheaper than a shrink) or in some kind of conditioning/punishment ("You want to do what? Okay, but you'll regret it! You're using them 24/7 until you are ready to try to be an adult again."). I think I would be really unhappy if I had to use the diapers (for everything), but part of my interest is in not needing to worry about nighttime accidents (which I would like to have, even if that sounds a little weird). I had nighttime accidents until puberty (15 or so, late bloomer) and am excited by the anticipation/possibility of not having control. So far, my friends have told me that this isn't really a "problem" and that I should probably explore a bit to see what it is I really want. They don't mind talking about it, but we are friends... so it's probably just them being super nice and trying not to be judgmental.
I don't really want to be babied (although there are some aspects that could be nice with my girlfriend [completely different set of questions there]) and I'm not interested in punishment/bondage-type things... I think I just want to have a very personal secret. So, no one knows that I wear diapers/wet the bed unless they are close enough to me and/or see me around bedtime.
What's anyone think?! I can't be weirded-out by much, but if you don't mind, keeping things rather "vanilla" would be nice.
Particular advice needed:
-How to talk to parents (or cope if they respond badly...)
-How to explore safely (I feel like there's a lot of things I could do that would be mistakes...)
-How to keep secret/maintain dignity where unknowing or uninterested parties are concerned