Ok, what has happened within the past month has been nothing but good things.
I've been getting massive amounts of overtime at work, I'm living in a brand new apartment that I love very much, and I'm currently living here with two other cubs (they currently don't have jobs, and if they don't get jobs soooon then they're gonna have to find somewhere else to live >.> *glares across the room*), also I haven't had to pay for internet quite yet because I'm picking up a half-way decent signal.
Anyways, everything has been utterly FANTASTIC and I really have nothing to complain about, except for the lazy cubs sitting in the living room and the fact that I'm currently at the most un-cubby I've felt in 10 years. It all started about two weeks before I moved out of Kitsuno's place, when my hours at work picked up, and the stress was on... All I wanted to do was have a place of my own again and be independent, which, so far, I've been doing a pretty good job of! I even ordered a case of Binos not too long ago and they should be arriving soon. The problem is that, when they do arrive, will I want to use them? Or even wear them? Even the cub roommates have noticed that I've been a little short, and distant. And I've tried to explain to them that I've been under a lot of stress at work and I don't have much energy when I get home, but jeez I don't see why I just can't regress.
One of them (not gonna name any names here) even went so far as to say that I'm more fun on the internet than I am in real life (and I'm usually a pretty fun and fun-loving person) and that really hurt my feelings because I know that I haven't been cubby as usual, and I still don't completely know why. I've been under more stress before in my life, and cubbing has brought much relief from that stress. I'm not sure what to do about it this time. I just don't have the desire to be cubby, and I realized that living with other babyfurs isn't as awesome as I thought it would be.
All I want is to feel cubby again T-T