I need your help with this and I hope this can stay in the Diaper Talk section and not have to be moved to mature.
Yesterday my mom walked into my room and I was wearing a diaper while masturbating. She saw me and I saw her and I jumped up and hid in my closet. She said oh my god and I said i was really sorry. I talked to her about an hour later and she said dont worry about it and tried to make me feel better.
Today I felt so bad about it I told her I was sorry about what happened and sorry for her seeing me in a diaper. She had no idea I still wore diapers, she thought i was in my underwear when i was really wearing a depend max protection diaper, it was dark in my room. (when i was around 15, im 21 now, my parents found out i like diapers and were really mad and eventually they thought i was done with it.)
She didn't understand why I like to wear them then and still doesn't now. I tried to tell her that more people do it to and I'm not the only one. She said she would rather have me wearing diapers then doing drugs but she still wants me to stop it. She told me to throw out all my diapers.
I tried to tell her that ever since I was 13 i liked diapers and that feeling never really went away. I know why I like them but it would be hard for me to explain it to her because its really embarrasing. How do I tell her that this isn't going to go away and its something that I can't give up. How do I try and explain to her that its what makes me feel good and that I've always liked it.
Please help me.