At what age did you first start to consider you had AB/DL (one or the other, or both) tendencies - not necessarily knowing what your yearnings/feelings indicated? Once you came to understand these feelings, regardless of the name you gave them, what age were you when you did act upon them? I'll start by saying that I was only able to acknowledge these desires, to myself, very late in life. However, my first thought, knowing something was "wrong" with what I was feeling, was at age 4. Of course this is only looking back on events and analyzing my mother's reaction when she found me trying to diaper myself for the first time at age 4. So many wasted years!