I bought a bottle the other day and omg I layed there, eyes closed, just sucking on it and a sense of euphoria came upon me. I don't know if it is a bad thing that I enjoyed it,. Just don't know if that means that I am starting to regress even more? I know I enjoy pacifiers once in a while and wear diapers a few times a week to bed and enjoy them while I sleep, always wet in them before I take them off so they aren't wasted. I just don't know quite what these feelings are? Can anyone help?