Actually I am kind of happy right now it is weird . I found someone that I really care for on facebook and sent her a friend request since she just joined . She hasn't accepted it yet but I just sent it. She is probably the most important character in my life. You see I am autistic, so I am really unsocial. I had no friends in middle school. I was made fun of constantly. She came and saved my life in 7th grade. She befriended me and stayed friends with me until I dropped out of high school in my sophomore year. With no real relationship with family, constantly getting picked on, and no friends except her I know I would have taken my own life if it was not for her. As I struggle to cope with being in college with no social life and no friends again she reappears. She lives in Alaska now but I just really hope she checks her facebook and accepts me. I don't want to be in any kind of sexual relationship with her; it is in no way sexual. I just wan't to find a way to express how I feel about her. I wan't to let her know how much she helped me. I just don't know how I should express this to her with out her thinking badly of me? Above all I would like us not just to be random Facebook buddies. I kind of want her to be able to open up to me, and me open up to her. When she has a bad day she can tell me about it. Since I am socialy retarded maybe you guys cab help me out.