This is something that I am not too open about, but I feel that I do want to talk about it. I was looking into it and found that Sadomasochism is the act(s) of basically getting aroused at the site of inflicting pain or receiving it.
However...I have in the past 2 weeks inflicted pain upon myself (belting and whipping myself) but did not do it to gain arousal from it. On the contrary, it was b/c I was angry at myself for not working hard enough on a paper, not being able to socialize like a "normal" 18 year old male, and just thinking that the people around me were i guess conspiring against me or just plain didn't like me and I inflicted the pain upon myself as punishment for not being able to be a normal human around them, which is what I think is leading to their conspiracy against me.
I have told my psych. about these incidents and she just nodded and moved on, which I thought was odd, since this seems to be a pretty serious issue, she just said I "Worry too much".
Is there a technical term for self punishment that does not involve deriving sexual pleasure from it? Is there something wrong with me? Has anyone else inflicted this upon themselves?
Note: I have not cut myself or committed any other forms of self harm upon myself, all I have done is whip myself.