So. Finally talked myself into it and placed an order with XP medical Thursday before last. I spent the next few days waffling between excitement and paranoia. Stoked on the good days. Bit my nails telling myself "This is insane, I should cancel the order now before anything goes wrong" on the worst. I held out and my package showed up Tuesday. Had a round of excuses ready if my roommates asked. If they saw something. Locked myself in my room all day to avoid any questions, even if it was probably over cautious - it probably got dismissed as another box of nondescript clothes and newage books from my grandmother.
One pack Abena Super, one pack Abena X-Plus. Just as requested. I had no idea what I was doing and the wiki said they're supposed to be good. I'm still getting the hang of putting these on on my own. They fit a little more comfortably since my first false starts but it still seems awkward to get a proper fit. A little small in the back, a lot loose in the front. They're tight on my thighs and loose on the waist. Because they're supposed to fit on men too..? Probably. X-Plus didn't feel exactly like I imagined - softer plastic than I'd thought. Stiffer padding. Tried a Super instead the next day. Maybe I'm imagining it but they feel softer, a little more breathable. They conform a little more pliably to my body when I put them on and it makes the fit just a little more comfortable, but the tapes feel less reliable. These first couple of tests do, at least. I wasn't sure about actually using them up to the night I tried them on but I broke and tried. Still working out how much I trust the absorbency. I wore another to bed but I didn't have the nerve to try again there.
I'm not sure I'll buy the X-plus again. Maybe just experiment with something other than Abena entirely. The particular places these feel too loose or tight on me leaves me thinking I'd be more comfortable in something that comes fit for women, and maybe if I'd feel better in a pull on next time. I'd enjoy something more form-fitting, I think. Plastic-backed where possible, and decently absorbent if I decided to experiment -that- way again. Do those of you with any experience have any advice?