Just tonight I've begun analyzing the burden of being an ab/dl. Has anyone ever felt like this burden is a tough thing to cope with?
I was out with a close friend for my 23 b-day and through the course of conversation began to analyize in my head, everything he was saying. We were talking about hot girls on the the other side of the bar etc. but when it comes down to it whats hot for me is not hot for 99% of the population. It feels like im lying when i say this and that about a girl. However im not fully lying I find them hot and what not only i picture them in a diaper or taking care of me and its these thoughts that are non -removable that bother me.
Why is it that we are the only few who have to deal with the burden of always being different... weather its just in our heads or everyones. It feels like I'm an alien in my own world... Idk i guess by now I'm just rambling but i just wonder how many cope with being ... different. Maybe i havent fully accepted my self or what not but i just wonder what people do to get through the hard times?