I know there are a number of people that are on here that are Asexual. This is wonderful, though my question is not really for them, I am in need of answers. Over the years I have worried that it was me that was unwanted or that all that was needed in our relationship was that I accept his wearing of diapers. I have always known he loves me, but he has ever seems to be in love with me as in he has never had a need or interest in me other then friendship.
We plan to spend the rest of our lives together but he tells me he is not wired properly to be interested in me(implying anyone) physically. So the closest I can think is he is best described as Asexual.
The problem is while he is happy with the way our physical relationship is, all it leaves me feeling is unworthy, unwanted, and like I am not enough of a woman. I want a family someday, I want it to be with him, but I do not see this happening.
The question is how do others change these feelings and come to terms with what to me seems to be rejection on a daily basis?
How do you keep from taking it personally?
How do I get the things I need with out hurting our relationship?
He is the love of my life, but I do not want to give up the life that I need.
How do I choose between Love and Self?