I'm 24 now, and have been wondering for a long time, will I have this diaper fetish for life?
I had a lot of shame about it from my family growing up (my brother outed me). They basically told me that I'd have an even harder time finding a partner who accepted me, because on top of a diaper fetish, I'm gay. As a result, I tried giving up diapers when I went to college (at 20) and lasted a month. At the end of that month, I was unable to rationalize why I shouldn't indulge my desires for diapers.
I have always felt that diapers were a sexual outlet that was safe for me, outside of committed relationships. I have a boyfriend now that is very open and accepting, and is trying to understand this fetish, and how it fits into our sex life. I used to be resistant to the idea that I'd ever give up diapers, now I'm not so sure: I'd be ok if my desires left me. He has asked me if this is something that is holding me back, and I cannot honestly say that it isn't.
One of the problems is that diapers/diaper fantasies are a very strong sexual stimulus for me. I get very turned on by those fantasies, and sex is second in terms of orgasmic potential. I'd love for sex to be #1 for me, because I'd like to be able to connect with another human being at a sexual level. The other problem is that fantasies are not based on reality, they are based on fiction, and I feel like I'm avoiding reality by withdrawing into fantasy for sex. Not that fantasy doesn't have its place, just not all the time.
How do I have a normal sex life without diapers?