Well, what can I say? I've been an TB/AB for as long as I can remember, which is quite some time ago. I grew up with a single mother and a younger (3 years younger) brother. Because he was so much smaller than me (I'm not small by any definition), my mother was more protective of him than me. My mom is the oldest of 4 sisters and I'm the oldest of the grandchildren. This translates into me being made to be the "big boy" even though I was still very young. I think that's what started my yearning to be a baby again. I never really felt loved because my brother and cousins got so much more attention than I did. I remember on my 8th birthday, my mom and her parents got my brother a gift because he was "still little" and would feel left out. I started taking diapers from him when he was 2 and I was 5. I tried to wear them, but our size difference was so much that it was basically impossible. I suffered this desire for most of my young to young adult life, until I found the internet. I found that I wasn't alone and that there were tens and maybe hundreds of thousands of people like me. That was one of the happiest moments of my life.