Good things, bad things, bewildering things, and unexplainable things. I've noticed how certain milestones have come and gone by in my *b/dl life that have had significant effects on how i carry my self in the lifestyle. Times where i have almost promised my self i would never wear again, other times when i felt it dear to my heart to swear i would never be separated for any period of time again, and other such events that have had such an affect i wouldn't be who i am today.
I guess these things happen and they are normal to life, or maybe they are not and im from Mars either way id really like to hear about what has either shook your foundations, rocked your worlds and whatever else has significantly occurred to you which resulted in any sort of major decisions or revelations in regards to diapers.
This might sound extremely vague and general so ill start with something that happened to me not to long ago.
Going for a "trip" in diapers, no i do not mean traveling from point A on map to point B, im referring to the ingestion of certain food poisons and having your frame of mind making a long distance trip to a new unvisited part of your psyche. Well all in all it was an amazing trip, but coincidental things kept happening which were really getting to me and making me skeptical on life's whole "random-ness" bit. I kept seeing signs that seemed to be saying hold on to your youth, treasure your capacity to remain young, and enjoy every second you have while able-bodied. This just bolstered my mood and general time and left me peaking with high confidence.
I found most of my trip well spent in the company of dear friends who were also tripping and the world was at peace, we were all having the times of our lives and learning a great deal about our selves and each other. Well my diaper thing was one item that would not be up for discovery that day to anyone but myself, and boy did i learn a lot.
I basically had an out-of body experience where i began to view not my body or surroundings but my general aura, and i saw it growing in strength and becoming warmer some how softer. It was originally a cool wispy color but it sort of formed into a concentrated softer color some what lighter more airy and while this was happening i was suffused with memories i can only imagine i created because they didn't have an authentic feel to them, rather they felt allegorical and retrospective. I wont go into details about them specifically but they filled me with joy and needless to say my fantasies were running rampant. At that moment i began to feel my self wetting profusely and while it felt extremely real, my mind kept telling me none of this is happening, and then i remembered how i made my self "hold-it" for the trip. At which point, in the span of a few milliseconds, i hyper-panicked thinking i just peed my self while tripping in front of friends, of course i was smiling my head off a few seconds later after i realized everything was in fact okay.
All during the trip i would constantly feel my legs were wet and i would hallucinate that there were puddles forming out of my pants but of course every time i blinked back i would see a well hidden padded bottom and smiles on my friends faces. The feeling of one-ness i had with diapers grew and stuck with me ever since that trip and i have become a lot more comfortable and kinda reckless with them in the time since.
(This is what i mean by something that kinda changed the rules about diapers for me.)
So thats mine, it was all in all something that i believe furthered my relationship with diapers, there have been times of just the opposite, but ill wait to see if anyone even reads this thread to get into that.