I was toilet trained late so I have many memories of diapers and toilet training and I've missed it all a lot since those years which is why I'm a DL. I'm not an AB because for one thing I'd rather be a toddler and I can't play make believe alone or online. I would like to engage with a wife eventually but I know this is slim to none and it just kind of makes me mad. I'd like to be able to leave my chilhood years behind like most people but at the same time I don't because those were fun years. I feel like I need to see a therapist or sex therapist for this. Anyone else feel this way?